Laundry Room Renovation

Well, I haven't written in a while, even though I try to write at least once a week. The only time I really get a chance to write is when it's slow at work, or when I have time over the weekend. Well this past weekend I was as sick as a dog and the weekend before my BIL and soon-to-be-SIL were visiting from Ottawa, Canada. While BIL was here, he helped DH finish the laundry room renovation that he started with a friend two weekends before that.

It looks awesome! I'm so happy with the results. With the way our house is layed out, we don't have a lot of options. I just can't believe the difference.
Notice all the pipes and valves that come out of the wall...the old cabinets.

We had to rip down all of the dry wall and recess the piping. I know it doesn't seem like that big of a deal, but it's

totally affected the kitchen access which is next on the list. Also, this is giving us SO much more storage space, freeing up our already cramped and scant kitchen cabinets. It's serving as our dry pantry, more cosmetic effects to follow.

Cracked eggs and teeth

Eggs. Seems to be a spin off of last weeks topic. But, of course the saga of my co-worker being fired is still fresh. Especially today as I over-heard the boss talking about it on the phone, specifically. Thanks for the reminder that I am not secure in this position. Anyhoo, I have enough cramps as it is, and don't need to give my stomach anything else to be mad about.

Back to the eggs...mine isn't fertilized. Hopefully one will be maturing soon, as I am on official cycle #3! In a way I'm actually glad to have made it to cycle #3 for several reasons:
1. I kind of like the idea of striking out a couple times before hitting a home run...more suspense. (At least right now that's how I feel...still in a normal time frame for TTC)
2. My SIL is (hopefully) going to have her first IUI next month, and I would love for her to get pg before or at the same time as me, since she's been trying a bit longer than I have.
3. I'll get to have a drink for V-day and possibly my Bday!
4. If I can't have a drink on my B-day, it's because I will have gotten a BFP! What a fun prospect. Two years ago I bought myself a house for my Bday, so it's only fitting;-)
5. I won't be considered a "drive-by" on GP and actually have people pulling for me there.
6. Barring me losing my job...Hubby will be able to get it at least one more FT semester in college before going PT. Meaning he'll graduate sooner, yay!
7. I have longer to re-establish my post-marathon exercise routine before getting pg, so I can have a healthy pregnancy. (My docs pro running before and during pregnancy!)
8. I can save up a lil' more vacation time for Mat Leave.
9. I have more time to get the house where I would like it to be before baby comes.
10. More time to save more money!

That's me right now, glass half full kinda girl! I'm gonna need that glass at least half full too, to swallow my new supplement regimen. I'm taking B6 this cycle, and am going to start vitex as soon as it arrives in my mail box. I'm back on my pre-conception tea kick as well, and continuing the green tea sippin'. I think DH is starting to get a lil' serious about the first T in TTC too. Which is pretty freakin' sweet. I felt like it was only me worrying about and coordinating everything, which for me gets overwhelming because I very much need him to be in this with me...he is my very necessary teammate in all this. I would not want to do this without him. I know they can't be nearly as involved as the woman, but I just need him to be involved enough that I don't feel like I'm the only one who wants this.

Teeth. I started the process of getting my cracked onlay replaced last week, and it's been a series of annoyances. The temp fell off on Saturday, and has not wanted to stay on since...I went in Monday to get that sucker nailed on, and it lasted, Oh about 6 hours. Anyway, I decided not to call them again because I'm sick of going in all the time...But, have resolved to make due with drug store goop to keep it on and call the DDS to see if they can just get me in sooner for the perm.

Anyway, I'm trying to stay optimistic about EVERYTHING, and not worry about the things that aren't really in my control. I'm very pleased to see that my charts easy to read, and that most things appear to be working correctly...minus the incredible shrinking cycle and somewhat shortER LP length, I have no complaints. Except with these cramps.

Eggs and Eggshells

Today is the second workday after my friend and co-worker got let go (Friday). It was an insane day. I was sick all day that day. Couldn't eat, couldn't concentrate. I have trouble with the latter anyway. It's especially hard because I'm also friends with his GF who still works here. She was so upset for obvious reasons, and the mood around here was so weird. To be honest, we work in the field sometimes. If they hadn't removed his name plate from the door, it would totally feel like he's just out and will be in soon. But he won't. Aside from the fact that he's my friend, from a co-worker stand point, I'm FREAKIN' worried. I've always viewed us as being in similar situations. Not really having a niche here, not being seen as the "superstar" worker as we have always been seen at other jobs. So, selfishly, I can't help but worry about my own stability and I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with this job more than ever...

...that brings us to the eggs. I confirmed O today on FF. That's right. Got me some mighty fine CHs. My charts looking good. I'm no doc, but things appear to be pretty normal on the hormone front. But, I'm not too confident with this cycle. A couple things weren't ideal, and as far as timing goes, I only got a "good" reading. So, it's not for sure, but it's not impossible. The evening that would have been prime was the evening that my friend got fired. I broke down to DH and appologized in advance for him possibly having to drop out of some classes and go full time at work...he was totally supportive, and obviously up to do whatever ended up needing to happen. But, then I started thinking about medical coverage, and being pg. I think that put a damper on my TTC efforts because part of me felt irresponsible. I mean anyone could lose there job at anytime, and unless you know you're going to get laid off, what are you supposed to do? I'm the one with the medical coverage, and if DH went FT at his job, he would be subject to a 90 day waiting period before benefits would kick in anyway.

I guess in a way it's kind of nice, not wanting it so badly. I want to be pg, but I also believe that life is a mixture of fate and hard work. So, I have the "it will happen when it's meant to happen" approach to TTC this cycle. DH and I believe in ourselves, that we can figure things out and get through anything that's thrown our way. We're going to keep trying, and working, but we're not totally in control of variables such as work and the economy. We can't put life on hold just because we're not fortune tellers.

Working Hard or Hardly Working?

Today I decided to move my blogging efforts to Blogspot. Yay.



DH starts school today...if he continues going full time, then he'll only have one more year after this semester! Yay! Unfortunately, or fortunately depending on how you look at it, he may start attending school PT starting next semester if we get KU in the next few months. He recently started working with an Aerospace company, and could most likely work there full time when ever he's ready. We just think it would be less stressful for both of us, if he was able to bring home the bacon (aka medical benefits) during my maternity leave incase I decide to return PT (if they let me) or we decide that being a SAHM is what we want.



To be honest, my work is threatening lay offs if we don't keep meeting our shareholder quotas. I've only worked here for 2.5 years, and am one of the newest employees. Things have also been slightly slow for me lately. I've never really "hit it off" with this job, it's certainly not my dream job...So, DH working FT would be a great opportunity for me to find that "it" job, spend a little more time on the house, and cover us incase my company does downsize "in these tough economic times." DH's career field is a lot more stable...



Sounds like a downer, but I'm actually in a pretty good mood. It's hump day, and I'm supposed to O this weekend which means lots of fun for me over the next 6-7 days *wink*